Some time back I asked my self, why do I write? The answer was just sort of a flippant, “Because I can.” Truthfully there was never really any thought given. It really did seem so easy for me to write on just about any topic, that I never honestly gave it much thought.
Then I stumbled across what is known as “expressive writing.” This style of writing is a great method for those who need an outlet for trauma from various issues in life. It is based on the idea of writing with no regard to anything other than putting down what you are feeling on the inside, concerning those subjects you would rather not discuss with another.
Deep, dark horrible things don’t have to be the issue, as things that are just disturbing qualify. Well, as I began to review some of my files from many years ago, it very quickly came to light that I have been writing expressively for years, long before word processors. I just never realized what it was.
Amazingly writing in this fashion has allowed dealing with a multitude of issues I would not have chosen to discuss with another. Tending to keep some things well buried, it may come as a surprise that I can still be very transparent about many other issues in my life.
So writing has been an unconscious therapy, which has now become a means of expressing myself beyond the need to deal with the disfunction of the past. The no rules no regrets is in force. What is written is not to please others rather encourage those who need it to use writing as a tool to ask themselves the questions to find the answers. No other has the answers for another.
Many find writing as a means to escape, creating a work of fiction that very likely contains parts of unpleasant memories that can be safely acted out through characters in the story. It has always been claimed that in novels, there is more truth than fiction. The challenge for those who choose to accept it, is to divide the two.
While using words to enlighten the reader, it is also to disguise some of the real attempts at delivery of the hidden message. there’s always a message, which is the purpose of writing in the first place. Without that it’s just a collection of words.
Do you write? Journal? Keep a daily account of your actions and activities? Keeping track of those things that take place in life can reveal habits you are unaware of, that may be the very thing you want to change.
Awareness is the first step, as anything less defeats the attempt for change before it can even begin. A secret just learned is, everything that has taken place in your life up to this moment, was necessary for what comes next. Either you are acutely aware of what you don’t want for the rest of your life, or equally conscious of what you do want. However, without all the events that have occurred to this point in your life, you couldn’t know what you didn’t want without having first experienced it. the same can be said for what you do want.
So writing about those things that have importance for you, can reveal what may have been buried. Both positive and negative show up, which enable you to see behavior patterns that may not have led you to positive outcomes. The contrary is also true. Without written accounts, you must rely on flawed memories.
I never quit learning, even though some lessons have been repeated many times before truth showed it’s colors. I am continually reminded this continues until the moment where the final transition is made. Admittedly there have been lapses in the learning, but it always seems to catch up in those least expected adventures that announce arrival.
There’s a bridge close by where I can go bungie jumping. Sounds like it could be one of those adventures.